July 2020
SHE’S BACK!
So I quit my job. During May and June my anxiety was on another level. I’d never experienced anxiety at this intensity. I knew that my job was the reason for it. In the beginning I thought that it was going to be my bridge job to self employment with my ceramics. In a way it was, as it helped me to fund all the equipment I needed. However, I soon started to realise that I took this job out of fear that I couldn't find another job. While taking this through Lacy Phillip’s work I realised quitter was one of my shadows. I’ve never quit a job before, the reason I’ve left my other jobs was because I was moving to a different country. I’d experienced anxiety with my previous jobs, but I always pushed it aside and tolerated it. For the sake of security and financial stability. This time however, it couldn’t be ignored. I tried to tell myself to stick with it but the more I pushed against my feelings the worse it got. I knew that this time I had to make a change and break the cycle.
Although it took a while I did it —I quit. Taking care of myself doesn't mean that I'm a quitter or weak. I made the right decision for me. If anything it made me less of a settler and built my trust in the universe. I’m so grateful to be in the position that I could quit my job and pursue my dreams.
Three weeks after quitting my job I feel like myself again. I was only planning on giving myself one week of just chilling out but I decided to take the rest of the month to get into my new flow and make sure that I was taking care of my mental health.
So with that here are a few things that helped me out these past weeks:
Melissa Wood Health —I’ve been loving working out using the MWH method. The movements look easy but they’re quite the challenge and you work up a sweat. I took up the 7 day trail and loved it. I’ve been making time for it everyday.
Kosas Wet Lip Oil Gloss (dip & jaws) —I haven’t bought new makeup in a while and I wanted to try a different lip finish. I’m usually a cream or matte lip finish kind of girl. But with the whole quitting my job thing, I decided I would continue making more changes in my life. No job, new me. Let me tell you, I’m for the gloss. These are great —not sticky, moisturising and I like the colour pay off! I think I tapped back into the dangerous part of me that loves makeup, because now I want to try everything in Kosas’ line.
Cooking —I’ve been making a lot of pasta lately. I’m currently doing research on making fresh pasta, so I’m excited for that.
Killing Eve —It was on my watch list for a while, but it wasn’t until Isabel raved about it that I finally watched it. IT’S SO DAMN GOOD. It left me a little paranoid for a few days, but it was worth it. The show has such a strong female lead. These women are smart, strong and driven. It’s so good to finally see more asian female characters that aren’t the generalised or stereotyped to be the nerdy, shy, side kick, gets killed off in the first half hour character. Also Phoebe Waller-Bridge is the creator and writer! So if you haven’t seen it, do it!
Here are the past two monthly playlists that I didn’t post:
May 2020 Playlist
June 2020 Playlist