April 2020

I basically spent all of this month making sourdough and cultured butter. It's been a very emotional journey, especially with sourdough. My starter is going on one year strong now and I've been able to share him with my friends as family for their own sourdough experiments. This is one of the things that have helped me stay sane during isolation —doing food drop offs for them.

The regulations around isolation in Western Australia is starting too slowly starting to relax. My anxieties around covid have calmed down. But the biggest thing I’ve noticed this month about my mental health is around work. I feel stressed and anxious a lot at work. Besides the affects of covid on work, it’s more the pressures I put on myself. This month I really felt like I sucked at my job but also had the conflicting feeling that I was actually doing a good job. I’m still my worst critic. Without fail every time I’m asked at work —how do you think you went? I always start with the negatives. It takes a lot of reflecting to think about what I felt I did well. The industry I’m in now is so out of my comfort zone. I’ve picked up some of the processes fast, but I still feel like I haven’t got the hang of it yet. I’m trying to change my mind set by listing one thing I did well at work.

There were so many times that I wanted to quit, but by the end of the month I started to feel better. I have colleagues and loved ones who are very supportive and encouraging. I couldn’t be more grateful to have such a good team to be working with. It has definitely made this month a little easier. Please remember to check in with your loved ones. Everyone has so much going on in their lives, sometimes we push everything aside and forget to process and think about how we’re feeling.